出国2年，最明显的感觉就是，自己活的更清楚了，也更孤独，也正在变得更强大。

1.国外没有那么多主流思想去影响自己的判断，就连台上站着的牛津剑桥的lecturer都总会嘴上说一句这只是我的个人看法。

2.在国外，我找到了自己的梦想。我自认为一直都是一个上进的人，学习好一直都是我重要的事。但是在这漫长的中学生涯，总是缺了灵魂性的东西，就是热情。一直都觉得最好的就是自己最想要的，到了后来在澳洲预科的时候，不知道以后大学学什么好，那就去biomedicine吧，因为那个系的要求总分最高，后来在国外待久了，发现成绩的好坏只是自己的事，没人在意，热情真的很重要，后来还是上了biome的分数线，但是果断的选择了自己的本命。在此奉劝在专业的优势和兴趣中徘徊的，请不要小看了后者的无线可能性

3.出国真的可以把这个世界缩小，以前觉得高不可攀的，现在依旧是，但是不会陌生了，不会被高墙的圣光闪瞎了眼。圣光依然是圣光，然而并非想象中的那么刺眼罢了

4.你会体验到生活十几年从为感受过的孤独。孤独是一剂温润的猛药，无形之中的渗透经常然后恍然才觉得压的喘不过气来。这就是为什么经常听到一首歌，看到一处景，眼眶都会湿。我是个白天很强大的人，晚上在梦里哭醒过好几次，更是荒谬的梦。孤独，没有人在留学的路上可以完全无视，更是人生的必修与来过世上的证明。国内的热闹都无法与你有关。为什么求仙得道需到深山寻，因为静，方得修炼。而静，只有在国外才是如此的湮灭你，你没有家人，所识多为泛泛之交，知交也不会随时在你左右。 你一定会也必须静下来，而人一旦静下来，不是疯了就是超脱到另一个境界。

我在中学的时候是个很嗨的人， 一到放假就是约约约的那种，现在想来，大部分原因是因为中学的假日本来就很少罢。 出国后，自己有了大把自由时间，没有人规定最晚什么时候回家， 跟盆友在外面吃饭是日常因为没有人在家煮饭。 刚到的那一两个月是高亢，因为跟之前的生活种种都是不同， 然后觉得这种突然改变了的日常开始无趣，然后会反思很多， 我到底要做出些什么。 我自认为是个很自律的人， 所以在我的价值观里，约约约的生活就是一种堕落的开始， 我羡慕那些可以做出一些东西的人。 在学会静下来的时候， 我开始学着去编曲，学着去看完一本课外书然后自己在电脑上写下感想，学着去临摹写生画画，学着去练钢笔字。曾经不知在哪听过一句话，人的一生有六个朋友， 旅行，读书，音乐，电影，锻炼，养生。而我也希望变成自己欣赏的人。 想找人说话了，会跟三两个朋友在好天气出去走走，越发不喜欢一群人挤在一间ktv唱k歌之王。是会明显的感受到什么叫做“狂欢是一群人的寂寞，寂寞是一个人的狂欢”

想补充一下，为什么会孤独。

出国后的圈子，没有亲人，朋友不再是一个班级那种概念里的。班里的同学你看的惯也好，看不惯也好，三年你躲都躲不过。而在国外，开心了就可以日日跟相见恨晚的朋友粘在一起，不开心了马上撕逼永不相见也并非难事。老外的圈子一来并非那么好融入，二来毕竟本性还是不舍得丢弃自己的文化秉性去完全改装成一个西方思考的人（所谓的香蕉人）。中国人的圈子我也说了，只会更复杂。出国留学的人，大多有西方思想的自我主义和说做就做的勇气，也同时有些中国人自古熏陶的价值观。这种四不像只会让留学生很容易在国内国外都变成outsider。另外，孤独的原因太多了，大把的空闲时间，国内的热闹与自己空虚的对比，吃饭散步连个说闲话的人都没有，回家不是窍门而且掏钥匙。总觉得，出国，很容易就催老了一个人的心态，习惯了孤独，明白了岁月静好，懂得了十几年爸妈理所当然的守候是如此的珍贵。当外界的东西很多都空了，剩下你一个人，就会开始思考了。

After going abroad for 2 years, the most obvious feeling is that I live more clearly, I am more lonely, and I am becoming stronger.

1. There are not so many mainstream thoughts in foreign countries to influence one's judgment. Even the lecturer from Oxford and Cambridge on the stage will always say that this is just my personal opinion.

2. In a foreign country, I found my dream. I think I have always been a motivated person, and learning well has always been my important thing. But in this long middle school career, there is always something missing, which is enthusiasm. I have always thought that the best is what I want the most. When I was in the preparatory course in Australia, I didn’t know what to study in university, so I went to biomedicine, because that department had the highest total score, and I stayed abroad for a long time. , found that the quality of the grades is only my own business, no one cares, enthusiasm is really important, and later I got the score line of biome, but decisively chose my own destiny. Here I advise those who are wandering in the professional advantages and interests, please do not underestimate the wireless possibility of the latter

3. Going abroad can really shrink the world. I used to think it was unattainable, but it is still the same now, but it will not be unfamiliar, and I will not be blinded by the holy light of the high wall. The Holy Light is still the Holy Light, but it is not as dazzling as imagined

4. You will experience the loneliness that you have never felt in your life for more than ten years. Loneliness is a warm and powerful medicine, and the invisible penetration often feels overwhelming. This is why hearing a song or seeing a scene often makes the eye sockets wet. I am a very strong person during the day, and I woke up crying several times in my dream at night, which is even more ridiculous. Loneliness, no one can completely ignore on the way of studying abroad, it is a compulsory course in life and a proof of being in the world. The excitement in the country cannot be related to you. Why do you need to go to the deep mountains to seek immortality and Taoism? Because of tranquility, you can practice. And Jing, only when you are abroad can you be so annihilated. You have no family, and most of your acquaintances are casual acquaintances, and close acquaintances will not be around you at any time. You must and must calm down, and once a person calms down, he will either go crazy or transcend to another realm.

When I was in middle school, I was a very high-spirited person, and when it came to holidays, I was the kind of joking around. Now that I think about it, most of the reasons are because there are very few holidays in middle school. After going abroad, I have a lot of free time. No one stipulates when I will go home at the latest. Eating out with friends is a daily routine because no one cooks at home. The first one or two months after I arrived was very high-pitched, because it was different from the previous life, and then I felt that this suddenly changed daily life became boring, and then I would reflect a lot on what I was going to do. I consider myself a very self-disciplined person, so in my values, Joyoyo’s life is the beginning of a kind of degeneration, and I envy those who can make something. When I learned to calm down, I started to learn to arrange music, to read an extra-curricular book and then write down my thoughts on the computer, to copy and draw, and to practice pen calligraphy. I once heard a saying somewhere that a person has six friends in his life, travel, reading, music, movies, exercise, and health preservation. And I also hope to become someone I admire. When I want to talk to someone, I will go out with three or two friends in good weather, and I don't like a group of people crowded in a ktv to sing the king of karaoke. You will clearly feel what is called "carnival is the loneliness of a group of people, and loneliness is a carnival of one person"

I would like to add why I am lonely.

In the circle after going abroad, there are no relatives, and friends are no longer in the concept of a class. Whether you are used to seeing the classmates in your class or not, you won’t be able to hide them for three years. But in foreign countries, when you are happy, you can stick with friends who you see each other every day, and if you are unhappy, it is not difficult to tear up and never see each other. Firstly, the circle of foreigners is not easy to integrate into, and secondly, after all, I still don’t want to abandon my cultural nature and completely transform into a Western-thinking person (the so-called banana person). I have also mentioned the circle of Chinese people, it will only become more complicated. Most of the people who study abroad have the egoism of Western thought and the courage to do what they say, and at the same time, they also have some values ??that the Chinese have cultivated since ancient times. These four differences will only make it easy for international students to become outsiders both at home and abroad. In addition, there are too many reasons for loneliness, a lot of free time, the contrast between the hustle and bustle of the country and my own emptiness, eating and walking without even a gossip, going home is not a trick and you have to dig out the keys. I always feel that going abroad can easily urge a person's mentality, get used to loneliness, understand that the years are quiet, and understand that the care of parents for more than ten years is so precious. When many things in the outside world are empty and you are left alone, you will start thinking.